The Cross has the Final Say

“Jesus died so that I could live. He rose so that we could be wed.” This thought popped in my head in the midst of worship Tuesday night. In the middle of a song, whose lyrics include the phrase “the cross has the final say”, I found myself staring at …

For Intellectual Christians who Struggle with Accepting the Grace and Love of God

I see you. I understand your plight and I know that the struggle is, like, so real. It’s a challenge sometimes to accept that a holy, righteous God could love you in spite of all of your wrongdoings and mishaps. I, too, have wrestled with countless questions and doubts concerning …

Lessons from A.W. Tozer: The Doctrine of Accepting and Seeking Jesus

I’m currently going through A. W. Tozer’s The Pursuit of God for the second time and in chapter one, I find that simplicity is a common theme as it relates to man’s relationship with God. Tozer has an interesting view on what accepting and seeking Jesus means and I believe …

The Hope of the Messiah in the Midst of Pharisees

When I was washing my cup out late last week, I washed the outside first and then the inside. I usually don’t do that. I usually wash it the other way around. I didn’t think anything of it until Holy Spirit reminded me of this verse: “Woe to you, scribes …

Hanging in the Balance

I woke up this morning thinking about ways to die by suicide. But before I opened my laptop to research flights to the Golden Gate Bridge, I thought about last night. I thought about the NF jam session I had with my friend on the way to mid-week service. I …

There, but for the Grace of God, Go I

When Christians speak of their story, or testimony as it’s called in religious circles, most of the time the speaker will tell of a time that God brought them out of something larger than life, something impossible like a terminal disease or drug addiction, or retell a grandiose tale of …

Why “God Loves Me” Isn’t Enough to Sustain Christianity

During a conversation I had with a friend last week, she expressed to me that she was doubting several things regarding spirituality and Christianity, as a religion, and what value it had to her personally. She no longer wants anything to do with the Church, as her congregants are full of …

There’s Always Tomorrow to Kill Yourself (Except Not Really-Psalm 116:9)

After I hopped out of the shower tonight, fully comfy in my pajamas, my eyes fell on my covenant ring and its corresponding verse popped up in my memory: Psalm 116:9. For reference, the verse simply states, “I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living.” Just …

Don’t Drink the Fabuloso: For Suicidal Christians Too Afraid (or Too Condemned) to Ask for Help

Yes, you read the title right. Do not freak out. For my charismatic believers, do not get the holy oil and start speaking in tongues and/or casting out demons that may not actually be there. Just let me explain. A Brief Synopsis of My Mental State I am not okay. …

Lessons while Watching the Sunrise

Dear Lovelies, I did something different this morning. Instead of spending countless minutes on my phone at the first sign of consciousness, I went outside to my backyard and watched the sunrise. The first verse of Psalms 8 says “Lord, our Lord, how magnificent is Your name throughout the earth!” …